I’m a Blogger Who Doesn’t Really Blog

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You know, I’ve had a blog for about…four years now, I’d say, and I wrote on it frequenty the first year, not as much the second, not much at all the third, and I post occassionally now, but I really never actually blogged, like I’m doing now, I guess.

I mean, actually, I guess I kind of have a few times, like the My Thoughts kind of deals.

Maybe, I should just keep up with that.

I just had the sudden urge to blog, just to write about my day or how I feel or something. I’ve only really done that when I was really depressed in the past or when something was bothering me. I don’t know, though…There is something a little, un-nerving about writing about my secret thoughts and feelings, or listing my whereabouts and daily schedule, or even just…I don’t know…Maybe I will, maybe I won’t. Most likely not, actually. But this was fun.

Maybe I’ll just put up little cute posts like this every now and then.

Well, anyway, just wanted to write something. I’ve been working extremely hard lately; I stayed up so late last night I only got like 3 hours of sleep and I’ve been kind of energized all day.

Hey, I think today was a good day.

Well, anyway, I’ve been stressed, and this was kind of a release.

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Indian Contempt for Imperialism

"Bride and Prejudice"

“Bride and Prejudice”

Filled with pride and driven with the false assumptions that the world should be “cleansed,” becoming one unified culture lacking difference and unfamiliarity, imperialists tend to impose their ideas upon others. Often believing their own cultures to be superior, Englishmen have become known for imperialism, and Americans are now infamous for spreading their ways across the globe. With fears of imperialism rising in India, history and media continue to spread messages of concern. From the acts of Gandhi, to the movie, Bride and Prejudice, based off of Jane Austen’s novel, Pride and Prejudice, imperialism remains the enemy.

True to their culture, Indians become defensive against imperialism, each in his own individual way. Famous for his nonviolent rebellions and ways of life, Mohandas Karamchand Gandhi became and Indian leader, defying imposed ideas and spreading his knowledge, wisdom, and peaceful ways. “In the end, you will walk out. Because 100,000 Englishmen simply cannot control 350 million Indians, if those Indians refuse to cooperate,” he remarked. Sharing these ideas, Lalita Bakshi from the film, Bride and Prejudice, rejected Mr. Darcy, the American businessman. Upset with the American businesses encroaching on India and converting the country from its true Indian roots into an American paradise, Lalita shares her opinions with Mr. Darcy and refuses him from sheer prejudice. Both feeling helplessly attacked, Gandhi and Lalita retaliate against their foreign enemies and eventually succeed.

Upset with the careless ignorance of the Englishmen and the Americans, Indians try to cry out. Against imperialism and frustrated with the changes imposed upon them, Indians create groups and rebel, or create movies and share their opinions. By taking a familiar English book and twisting it to show our faults, the message against imperialism was clearly delivered. With a firm belief and true loyalty to their country, Indians support Lalita’s message about standards, “Don’t force them on others.”

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Going to Texas State!

Texas State

Well, I applied to Texas State University on November 23, 2009, trying to meet the scholarship deadline of December 15, but came across a whole lot of problems. :\ I don’t really want to go through it all, but Texas State was asking for things that my school was refusing to give me…Anyways, after many e-mails, phone calls, and application checking…the golden envelope finally arrived right before the new year.

I’ve been accepted to Texas State University in San Marcos! I will hopefully be attending this upcoming fall and will be majoring in Studio Art with All-Level Teacher Certification. Now, I just need to scrounge up all the money I can, a very difficult task…

Bobcat

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Levels of Madness

"Heart of Darkness" by Joseph Conrad

“Heart of Darkness” by Joseph Conrad

Like the heart that beats in a human’s body, or the very Earth we walk on, the African wilderness has great layers, depths, and volumes. Clearly demonstrating this in his novel Heart of Darkness, Joseph Conrad uses the names of the company’s stations throughout the congo to describe the levels of the wilderness and relate to the development of the story. Outer, Central, and Inner describe the surrounding areas of the heart of darkness, along with the heart itself. As the main character, Marlow, ventures from station to station, the story progresses along with his surroundings.

First arriving in Africa, Marlow arrives at the Outer station, a place on the outskirts of the true African wilderness. Still demonstrating the suffering the Natives have been forced to experience, and still showing the imperialism occurring, the madness that lies within the Inner Station is hinted at. Natives and manufactured goods arrive and depart, and chaos quietly stirs. The station, itself, is not nearly as muddled as further into the jungles, but was not comfortable enough for Marlow to wish to stay long.

Leaving the station with a caravan of 60 men, Marlow was relieved, yet he only found himself entering deeper into the darkness. Coming upon the Central Station, he was met with a run-down building with a neglected gap as a gate. It was obvious that a flabby devil was running the show as the manager, himself, was unable to manage. Living in a clay hut, he was surrounded with ghetto and poverty. In this contradiction, Marlow found himself growing nearer to the heart of Africa, the heart of darkness.

Finally following the river to the Inner Station, Marlow and his crew are met with a Native ambush. People are killed and blood is spewed as chaos and confusion spreads over the steamer. The fight drawing to an end, Marlow realizes where they have arrived, and enters the station. Mystery and confusion shrouds the place and hides its dark secret. Like the inner core of the Earth or the inner workings of a corrupted heart, the station is dark, resting in the heart of darkness. Surrounded by layers of turmoil and improper imperialism, it has become the center of a great evil.

As the novel progresses, Joseph Conrad uses the names of the stations to describe Marlow’s surroundings and journey through the darkness of the congo. As he draws nearer to the heart of darkness and nearer to the Inner Station, Marlow finds himself more and more surrounded by corruption and despair. Slowly progressing from each station to the next, the troubles developing as he continues, the story follows along with him. From the Outer Station to the Central Station to the Inner Station, the heart of darkness is revealed and exposed in stages.

 

 

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