Okay, so Mr. Gifford had us do a writing activity at our latest meeting in which we were to choose a character to display an emotion to another character…You probably don’t know these characters or the story that happened here, but maybe you can catch on from reading this. I wrote as Rohashi speaking to his friend SilverrFangg.
Rohashi’s Webpage SilverrFangg’s Webpage Tikalliah’s Webpage
What should I do now? With this treacherous act behind me, how can I live on? The blood still lingers upon my claws and haunts my dreams. I can’t bring this to SilverrFangg, can I? Can I tell him what I have done? Can I tell him that I am a traitor?
I have something that has been tearing me from the inside forever and I can’t even tell you about it. It’s too hard to explain, but I just can’t tell you because of all of the troubles connected with it all. I don’t really want to tell you, but I just don’t know. Should I? Gah! Well you and Tikalliah are all happy right now, well, at least Tikalliah is and I don’t really want to ruin it all. You’ve got a plan and your carrying it out and I’ve just been staying back in the corner with what I know tearing at my mind. It’s so terrible what I’ve done. I’m a traitor to you, but I feel that you had also betrayed me. You had left me there to die. What was I to do? I don’t exactly feel that what I have done is just, but there is something there that I just can’t explain. I… Well, Tikalliah is so full of joy and although I don’t know why, I wouldn’t want to ruin what she has. Even you, SilverrFangg, would be much happier not knowing of what I have done to you. What I was forced to do. Of course I was given a choice, but I went with it and I have accomplished the task. It now lingers on me and it is my fault. I have ended it and have started a new situation. The sad part is that you are trying your hardest to correct the situation. You are trying to fix it and make it all better how it was. I have ruined your life! If I had never met you or come across you, none of this would have happened. I don’t know where you, Tikalliah, or even I would be, but it wouldn’t be here and then they…None of it would have happened. My father would have still died and his crew would probably still have become jealous of me and would have captured me and prisoned me, but I just don’t know. Would I have died? Would I have done the terrible act and then would have died? I would have never met you, so you would still be a fisherman, right? You wouldn’t be out on these adventures because of me. You be out with your father, just fishing. Just out with your father… He would still be here and not…there. There where you are planning to rescue him and I can’t tell you. I would like to tell you, but I also don’t want to. Especially Tikalliah…I don’t want to hurt her. She’s so full of joy with her seashells and her basket…She’s always so happy…I really don’t want to end that, but in a way, I already have ended it. I just can’t tell you that. Or why. Or what I have done…Even with my death it still lingers. I have still done it. I am still here in living flesh. There is still blood on my hands. I have done it. I betrayed you. You had made me so frustrated and angry. I felt that you had betrayed me! You had. You had come and were given a choice, but you didn’t choose me. You chose her, your sister…You chose Tikalliah. I don’t know if that’s better or not really. You both survived. You and her are both here on this island, safe. I am here, dead, but I am still here. Thanks to the amulet that my father gave to me, I can be here with you and Tikalliah, although I did die. But still, it was after you had left that I committed the crime. Why did I? I had to! You forced me to…The crew forced me to…It was there, they were there, you weren’t there…You had chosen Tikalliah over me. Maybe you couldn’t…Maybe you had to…Maybe you were forced to. I don’t know. I don’t know any of it. I can’t make up for what I have done. I know that I can’t, but maybe I could make it better. I don’t know if I should tell you what I have done or not. I don’t know if that would make it better. Would it dampen Tikalliah? Would she still collect seashells? I mean, she didn’t really know… And you! What would you do if you knew what I have done? Would you go out and never return? Would you abandon me? Would you abandon your crew? What about your sister? Would you leave her? Would you end your life? You would then find them, I guess, you have the plan and everything…I could not tell you and you could find them or at least try to… You are at least trying to find them, but you just don’t know… Would it be better if you knew the truth, if you knew the truth of what I’ve done?
Sweet. I can appreciate him better now.