Throughout my entire life’s span, the fine arts have been the bones supporting my body just as creativity has been the blood flowing through my veins. I have always felt the need to create and imagine. As a shy and introverted person, I tend to retreat from society and quietly observe, relying on my pencil to act as my voice. As I’ve developed my artistic abilities, I’ve learned to communicate through art and allow others to glimpse within my mind. This level of understanding has intrigued me and motivated me to continue pursuing the arts. I have chosen to pursue a course in the arts because it has been an inseparable and valuable presence within my life.
So this has been one awful semester full of illness, death, and challenges.
I have been continuously stressed and constantly worked up all season worrying about my grades and attendance and all the difficult assignments I’ve been struggling to keep up with. It’s been really really rough…which is why I haven’t written a post all semester long.
Well, it’s over now…but it doesn’t quite feel like it.
I am so glad that it’s over. I can’t tell you how glad I am that its over, but for some reason it doesn’t feel like it.
I have stayed up so many nights, some in a row, and I feel so sleep deprived. This is finally my time to breathe a sigh of relief and take in the fact that I am done with everything, but for some reason I just can’t.
It’s probably because I am still really worried about my grades. This semester has been very challenging with my photography and printmaking classes. Both classes were not only very time-consuming, but were also very expensive, and very challenging in themselves. They also had very similar processes: both extremely repetition, as you make prints. I now know that I cannot stand making prints. I greatly dislike the process and having to repeat things over and over again to get the same result.
Anyways, those were the two hardest classes I had this semester paired with an art history, digital media, and an art theory class. Those other three were actually pretty easy, but the art theory class took a lot of outside class time and the digital media class was also pretty time-consuming. Since I love digital media and am very familiar with it, I enjoyed it, but I wanted to work on everything so much and make it perfect by really challenging myself rather than taking the easy route out, so that ended up taking a lot of my time, as well. Plus, there were just so many projects in that class…and in all of my other classes.
So I pretty much lived at the art building this semester. Night after night after night after night…I am so sick of the art building!
Yet, after all of the effort and work that I put in, I fear for my grades. I feel like this may be the first semester that I do not get all A’s and I will lose my 4.0 grade point average. I am very distraught about this, but I’ve really tried all I can do.
I’ve talked with my professors multiple times and have another appointment with one later today, so hopefully everything will turn out okay, but like I said, I’m really worried.
This should be my time to relax, yet I just can’t stop stressing.
Eeee! I am so happy, right now! 🙂
So, today was kind of an unexpected day. Of course, it started out like usual…
I woke up at 7:00AM with my sore throat and cough even worse than when I went to sleep, (like every morning…makes mornings dreaded,) and went to Commons for breakfast. I had my Psychology class, then went to Basketball class. Our teacher/coach didn’t really have anything for us to do, so he just told us to shoot around. I was practicing individual shooting for a little while and barely made any shots. I haven’t thrown a basketball in a few years, and I wasn’t that good in the first place. xD Then a game started up with a few people that were shooting around me. It was 4 on 4, and I felt bad for the team that ended up with me. We didn’t keep score, so I don’t really know which team won, but I did feel proud that I made 2 pretty good shots. 🙂 Of course, the other people on my team made more shots and better shots, for that matter, but I was pretty proud of myself. So, it was after Basketball class, that my day changed…
Well, I’ve moved back into my dorm here at Texas State.
It’s been quite a long time since I’ve written a blog entry, which is surprising because I just came back from Christmas Break. I was expecting to write more, but didn’t end up having much to write about, or was “busy” spending time with family and friends. I really wasn’t on my computer as much as I would have expected, but that’s okay…Perhaps I will be able to write more now that I am back to school.
So, classes start tomorrow, and I’m a little anxious and nervous. It doesn’t feel like class is starting tomorrow. After about 2 weeks of Christmas Break, I felt completely rested and ready to get back to school, but then after 2 more weeks, it kind of made me want to stay longer… xD I even decided to stay home for an extra day past what I had originally planned.
Now, I’ve been in my dorm for a few days, but I still haven’t quite fallen into a schedule yet. Of course, there’s no classes yet, so it should all settle in then.
I’m nervous for tomorrow.
I rode around campus today to find my classes and kind of plan my usual routes for the new semester, but all the buildings were closed. I know what buildings my classes are in, but not quite where in the buildings they are. It’s all right though, since 3 of my classes are in the art building, which I’m familiar with, 1’s in the Honors building, which basically only has like 2 or 3 classrooms anyways, and 1’s in the small Psychology building. The only one I was really worried about is my Beginning Basketball class which is located in the Coliseum which is across campus and very large with multiple floors. The doors were locked, so I wasn’t able to check out the inside, but I’ll have 40 minutes after my Psychology class to get to my gym class, so it’ll all be good.
So…in less than half an hour, I’ll have dinner with the Terrys and then a Floor Meeting following that. I’ll take a shower, pack my backpack, and get to sleep before midnight, possibly 11:00PM, so that I can wake up tomorrow rested and ready for my new semester!
Just a random thought…I noticed this today while I was taking a shower. xD
I reached for my body lotion and remembered that it says it’s for sensitive skin. I also have toothpaste that is for those who have sensitive teeth and gums. I have trouble eating ice cream or drinking soda with ice in it because it stings my teeth and gums, so I always use sensitive toothpaste. I also ask for no ice in my drinks, unless it’s water, and with the ice cream problem…I just can’t say, “No,” to ice cream. lol
So anyways, I was thinking about all of this and realized that I am just one really sensitive person.
I mean, I know that people tell me I’m all sensitive and emotional and such, but I had never thought about being sensitive both physically and mentally. I find it kind of mind-boggling. Well, hey, I am a Cancer…known for being sensitive and burrowing in the “crab shell” in all its insecurities to protect itself from the world. That’s pretty much me, in a way.
I had just never thought of being sensitive on the outside, too.
So…It’s finally Christmas Break. I love Christmas…and I love breaks…I love Christmas Break! 😀
What’s even better is that classes are over, I have no homework, no assigned reading, no work to do. It’s just me and my family and whatever I feel like doing! A true break! I am so excited.
Today, I played video games and went to the movies. That’s all I did. How exciting! 🙂
There’s still a little over a month of break left, so I’ll be totally rested and stress-free by the time the Spring Semester starts. I don’t see why I wouldn’t be.
Eeeeee! Let the break begin!
My, goodness! I haven’t written a blog post in a long while!
Everyone was telling me that the first few weeks of the semester, you’d feel like you had all the time in the world, and then BAM! You’re just all of a sudden busy all the time, non-stop, there’s always something to do, something to get done.
They were right.
I know I haven’t been posting lately, and it’s because I’ve been so fricken busy! Seriously, I’m going to have to start catching up on my blog soon…I don’t even have time to write right now, though. I’ve got homework to complete, papers to write, studying to do…But, I finished building my schedule for Spring of 2011 here at Texas State University. This is the schedule that I WANT, not the schedule that I HAVE yet…
Early Registration starts Monday, so let’s see how it turns out…
Monday:
8:00AM-10:50AM – Basic Drawing
11:00AM-1:50PM – 2-D Design
Tuesday:
8:00AM-9:20AM – Introduction to Psychology
10:00AM-10:50AM – Beginning Basketball
11:00AM-2:00AM – Lunch
2:00AM-3:20PM – Honors American History Through Biography
3:30PM-5:00PM – Dinner
5:00PM-7:50PM – Fundamentals of Art Theory
Wednesday:
8:00AM-10:50AM – Basic Drawing
11:00AM-1:50PM – 2-D Design
Thursday:
8:00AM-9:20AM – Introduction to Psychology
10:00AM-10:50AM – Beginning Basketball
11:00AM-2:00AM – Lunch
2:00AM-3:20PM – Honors American History Through Biography
3:30PM-5:00PM – Dinner
5:00PM-7:50PM – Fundamentals of Art Theory
Saturday was kind of…an unplanned kind of day…
Well, kind of, sort of. xD
I actually had 2 different plans planned out for Saturday. It just depended on one thing: whether or not an auto shop could find 2 bolts.
Friday was quite the day…which is why I’m writing about it on Sunday. I’ve had a busy weekend. xD
So, I don’t want anyone to freak out about me. I know what I’m doing… 🙂 But on Thursday, I was up pretty late studying for my Communications test Friday morning. When I was done, and had a good understanding on everything, I took a shower, set 2 alarms and went to bed. I usually wake up at 7:00AM for my classes, so I set my regular 7:00AM clock alarm, but I don’t have class until 9:00AM and could really wake up at 8:00AM and be just fine. I just like to have some extra time. But since it was late, I figured I’d want an extra hour of sleep and set my phone alarm for 8:00AM.
It’s all thanks to my grandparents, really…
I’ve always been a very religious person, although most people don’t know it. I pray every day, turn to God with all of my problems, and am very personal when it comes to religion and how I feel about it. It’s difficult for me to talk about it because it is very personal to me, but I’m not afraid to admit that I’m a Christian.
Today was going pretty smoothly I think…
I woke up just an hour later than my alarm, (which is fine because I set it for 2 hours before class,) because I had a nightmare that kept me up last night around 4:00AM and had already gone to sleep a little later than usual because of last night’s Movie Night. xD But, that wasn’t really that odd, or anything.