I do not feel like writing…The words will just not come. I sit here typing under the veil of darkness, not knowing what will come of it. My hands clack on, my mind rambling on…nothing coming…nothing at all. Why am I in this slump? Why is my mind so blank. I stare at the white before me that corrupts into my thoughts. The ideas and creativity leaves, abandoning the nothing left behind. Why is this? Why do I sit and let the ideas slip away? Where do they go? Why don’t they come back? Why do they return to me once I leave this place? I float through the world, observing, and thinking. My mind can never be shut off, even under the covers late at night, but why is it that I come here, to this blank screen, and all of that leaves me? With a piano ringing through my ears, and the darkness soothing my eyes, the gleam of the screen is like a barrier to my words. I can not form them, cannot plot, no story will come. My thoughts flow through my hands and across the keyboard jaggedly as I type. The messages are unclear. The ideas are unfinished. The creation in whole is incomplete with gashes and holes, waiting to be filled. My words come quickly as a poem flows along with the waters of a river, although they may not make much sense. The words are jumbled, with the thoughts behind them not very supportive. I am weak. I am unstable. I am empty. My mind…is…
I have thought of this many times before, but when I played dodgeball in gym today, I actually felt like writing about it. Let’s see if I can do it!
I believe that any randomized gym class could easily win a match of dodgeball if they broke each person into “jobs,” each with a special ability with only one thing to worry about. I will create a fake gym class based off of my own to demonstrate.
So, you’d like to know a bit more about me?
This is a picture of my brother, Wesley, and me in July of 2007.
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Where should I begin? I, Noelle Marie Brooks, was born in San Antonio, Texas, on Lackland Air Force Base on June 29, 1992 (and have a birthmark the shape of the state, too.) Although I lived on Lackland for 11 years I had four different houses until my mom was assigned to be a recruiter in Minneapolis, Minnesota and we moved in June of 2003. We lived in Wisconsin until August of 2003 while the Air Force was inspecting the house we were going to live in, and then in October of 2004, we moved from Minnesota to here, Minot, North Dakota. I will have lived here for three years this coming October.
Today for my English class, we were given the assignment to write a few non-fictional paragraphs that did not make up a story, such as our thoughts on something. The topic was for each of us to decide. Here is my piece.
It is interesting how a person can use mere words to describe the abundant amount of ideas and thoughts that linger in his mind. However he twists and uses his words is also very important and can change the way another person takes them in. When writing, one lacks the visual image and emphasis that he can add to his chosen words and is forced to carefully plan out what he wants to tell his reader.
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Today in my English class, we were messing around with hyperboles, which got me thinking…I’m going to write a bunch of sentences after this paragraph and your job is to find the 7 that are false about me. (This means that the other 13 are true.) Just comment your guesses and when I get a good amount of guesses and such, I will post the answers. Let’s see how this turns out. 😛
As I am sure that you noticed, I haven’t been writing much this summer. I have written a few My Thoughts and scribbled my story for the End of the Year Book, but it wasn’t really that much. Once again, I really don’t know why, but I have got a clue now…
Of course, all my best thinking is done at night, lying in bed, when I should be sleeping. It was around midnight last night and I knew that I would have to wake up at 6:30 AM today, but I couldn’t sleep. Too many thoughts were brewing around in my mind, which put me in the perfect mood to write. That’s the best time that I write, also. It’s all dark and quiet. Everybody in my house is asleep and I can just write without having to worry about…anything.
I was thinking last night, and I realized something…I tend to take one thing in at a time, but I take it all in. For example, when I am at dinner with a plate of food before me, I will eat all of one food first before moving on to the next. I noticed that I am like that in real life also.
I am sure that you can all remember how much and how often I was writing towards the middle of the school year. Well, I also have a guild to run and a few websites. At that time, I was doing a lot of writing, but never worked on my website, hardly drew for fun (besides pointless five-minute doodles,) and visited my guild about once a day. Towards the end of the school year and all this summer basically, the flowing river of writings from me has ceased to a trickle. I am sure that most of you thought that I had disappeared and wasting away my summer to nothing, or was going on vacation or something…I wasn’t. My vacation was actually cancelled and I have been home every day this summer except for four days. To read more on that, visit My Thoughts – June 12, 2007. I have been busy with other things. I just figured out that my computer came with a way better movie maker than the one that I had been using, and since my family and I have been visiting the zoo lately, I made some more videos. For a few weeks or so, I did nothing but make videos and stuff. I also made my first two animations recently. I am very proud of my second one. Please take a moment to visit my YouTube account. Here is my second animation, with one of my animal sounds. (I hope this makes you happy, Jared. :D)
After the video phase that I went through, I changed to drawing and my guild. I have been promising my guild that once we reached 100 members, I would throw a big internet party called the 100 Member Bash. Our number of members had been constantly changing from as low as 85 all the way up to 96, but it just wouldn’t reach 100. I created an entire new Guild Website on the 7th of June this summer, in hopes that it would attract new members and just because our old Guild Website really sucked. I also kicked everybody off of my Guild Council and took some applications from new people since the old Guild Council was inactive. I’ve got a new Guild Council now that is way better, helpful, active, and nice. We finally reached 100 members which meant that I had to throw that big party that I had promised. I gave every active member 2 free Game Points (which can be turned in for prizes on the Guild Website,) and a plushie to add to their collection since my guild is The Plushie Collectors Guild. On top of that, I created a 100 Member Bash celebration video on YouTube with my brother, (who is also in my guild.) You can take a moment to watch it…It’s pretty funny.
Afterwards, I was busy working on the new Guild Website and was constantly drawing pictures also. A few of my pictures are pictured here. Please be aware that a few of these are unfinished.
Cute Plushie Tanizard
Original Plushie Kottiou
Vixett Headshot
Cute Evil Vorite
Plushie Tanizard
I also learned a bit more CSS and started making my own custom userlookups. I created one for one of my accounts first and then had many people asking me for one. I have only finished three so far, but I have two more on a waiting list.
So I am still working on those userlookup requests, but I also wanted to redo my guild’s layout since it was totally destroyed. I had coded it in HTML, but the webhost switched the entire website to CSS, totally screwing up all my HTML. I had to redraw a completely new layout and recode it with CSS, but luckily I have been learning more, and it wasn’t that difficult. This is what I came up with just yesterday. I created a new mascot for the guild which is Kottiou, the creature sitting near the bottom and made it to where every plank on that wooden sign to the left is clickable and will take the viewer to a different page related to the guild. I am very proud of this new layout. 🙂
The Plushie Collectors Guild
Along with the new website, I had also been working on my personal webpages just a bit.
So anyway, my point with this post was to just show you guys what I’ve been working on this summer and to show that although I wasn’t writing, I wasn’t wasting my time…I hope that I will start to write some more really soon.
So, I guess I’m gonna’ rant…
All right, I made a Meez…I really despise copying other people and doing something right after they do, but it looked like fun and I was interested. My Meez shows my love of dragons, video games, and drawing! Yay! Too bad they didn’t have any long haircuts without bangs…
Surprisingly, it took my longer than I thought it would to get this written…I guess I didn’t realize how short 50 words was! Well, here it is…I’m not exactly sure what tiny part about ourselves we were supposed to write about…
First off, I love to write. I’ve always had a fascination to spread my thoughts into stories and have practiced through the years. I’ve also taken each chance I’ve received to improve my writing skills, entering writing contests and joining my school’s writing club, which has been the greatest help.
On Thursday, May 29, 2007, I heard this from my art teacher…